'Gaze...I want to gaze at You...'
This is my favorite song of all time. I have decided.
My sister Acacia wrote it - it is her singing as well. That is not why it is my favorite though. Do you know how much He just wants us to gaze at Him?
You can check out the song at www.cdbaby.com/cd/kumi and it's track #4. Acacia is a part of our War College session of 2003-04 in Vancouver.
Anyways, I was thinking this morning about my neighbour, who had realy dropped off of the radar for the past few days. She had been arrested for assault on her boyfriend, gone to jail, been released and was back with him in a matter of a day and a half. That's certainly a point for contention with me for obvious reasons, but the not-so-obvious reason is that when she thinks that we will disapprove of her, she avoids us. That bums me out, because a friend is a friend - even if they make asinine choices in their life...
So when I saw her drive up and go into her house, I contemplated approaching her and striking up conversation. I played out in my mind different ways to go about this, and remembered my old downtown eastside approach from my Vancouver days.
Whenever someone dear had 'gone out' (Narcotics Anonymous code for fallen off the wagon) and I ran into them in the neighbourhood, I'd just say gladly "There you are! I've been looking for you!" Which, if you coulda seen me (well, it was 'us' really - Tara and me were relentless at times) back in the day was true - as soon as you hear someone has gone out to use, if you go and look in all the usual spots, you can often find them before they go completely off the chain. So this whole approach of there you are, I've been looking for you is designed to make the person feel sought after, important, cared for enough to turn everything upside down - just for them.
I didn't use that approach on my neighbour this morning, but God used that approach on me this afternoon. I was driving a neighbour to the store and my mind was just wandering loose, and all of sudden I rounded a corner in my thoughts and there was God - right up there in the front of my mind.
You know what He said?
"There you are Heather! I've been looking for you!"
It really is a gift to be sought after, especially when I've been a bit of a no-show with the Lord. He never stops looking. It's a good thing too, with my tendency to wander off and be distracted.
